All or nothing?

Some weeks I really feel like I am on top of it....I cook the meals I planned, make us healthy & homemade snacks, hit the gym every day....

Then some weeks, I just really don't have my shit together. 

This week was the latter.

It started out great - I went shopping on Sunday like always with the best intentions of making us homemade pistachio cranberry energy bites for snacks, and getting everything for healthy meals for the week.

Mr. X and I then enjoyed the beautiful day by heading to a local pub for a pint and some sunshine....and to plan our upcoming trip to Japan. It was a great afternoon! But we probably had one drink or so more than we should have....

But no biggie - I didn't get around to making the pistachio cranberry energy bites, but I still made us a super delicious shrimp pasta (gluten-free) with avocado pesto from my super awesome Absolutely Avocado cookbook (which Mr. X got me for Christmas). It didn't even really phase me that I accidentally dumped the first batch of pasta right down the drain when attempting to strain it. And I still managed to put together a batch of steel cut apple cinnamon oats in the slow cooker for breakfasts this week.

Monday went ok - CrossFit, then made a super delicious black bean & chorizo soup for dinner. Things started to go downhill on Tuesday. First, I realized that I had totally forgotten that I had a girls happy hour Thursday night. But not a huge deal - I decided to go to CrossFit Monday, Tuesday AND Wednesday to get in my three times a week. And I thought I would just shift meals around a bit.

Then Tuesday during my lunch break I started doing research on hotels in Japan, and panic set in as I realized that EVERYTHING was booked for the time we planned to spend in Kyoto. The rest of our schedule wasn't looking to peachy either. I emailed Mr. X frantically and told him we would HAVE to book our hotels TONIGHT!!!!! We decided it made more sense to pick up sushi after the gym, so we could concentrate on trip planning and not cooking. It was delicious, not the worst meal. But we were up late, although we did get our entire trip planned and booked.

I groggily got out of bed Wednesday and it hit me that I had NOTHING to take for lunch since I hadn't cooked dinner the night before. Sigh. So I ended up with a turkey panini from the campus cafe. I also realized I had forgotten the potatoes for the Chicken, Potato and Leek pot pie that I had planned to make for dinner (since potatoes are kinda a key ingredient in a pot pie that is called "chicken, potato and leek pot pit" I remedied this by stopped at the store on the way to the gym), then messed up the crust (saved by a rolling pin)....

Let's just say the week has gone downhill since then: Culminating in a late happy hour last night, followed by breakfast tacos for breakfast this morning and a salad along with some chicken tortilla soup from the campus cafe for lunch. (Oh, and an afternoon brownie....but it was delicious and homemade, so I don't feel that bad...)

Needless to say, this week didn't quite work out like I had planned. And weeks like this one make me feel like I really don't have my life together.

And it totally reminds me of this awesome Hyperbole and a Half comic....

But I also need to be easier on myself. I remind myself that no one can have their shit together 100% of the time. It is just impossible. Because you cannot schedule life. Things happen, things come up and the plans change. And that is ok.

Also, even when I feel like I have gone totally off the rails -- I really am not doing THAT badly. A turkey sandwich and soup & salad may not be homemade lunches....but they aren't the worst thing in the world to eat. I could have done a lot worse. I still made it to CrossFit three times this week. Additionally, I hope to get a workout in this weekend. That is more active than some people.

I think I am often too hard on myself. I think that it is all or nothing. Either my week is perfect, I eat 100% right and workout every day. Or else I fail. And that is not true. This is about finding balance, slipping at times and climbing up further other times. It is about creating an overall healthy lifestyle that can be maintained. And it is about living life.